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Thursday, August 4, 2011
Food: My Fickle Friend
Yes I am, Dr. Phil! So, I joined a gym. Before I knew it I paid for a personal trainer. Thus started my weight loss journey. For the first week I ate low carbs, and fruit and veggies; did my exercises and lost 5 pounds. I feel like I was doing good on my own. I began debating whether or not I even need a trainer. After all, I can eat whatever I want as long as it's in moderation and substituted for something else... I went anyway.
Now, I am sad...why? Cuz, I love to eat!!! The first thing he did was put me on a strict lean protein diet. YIKES~I can't eat this way, I told him! But my mother's mantra reminded me, Can't can't do anything. Besides I might as well go through with it cuz I paid for this. And I want to do this right? That's why I started this...it's part of the journey.
Last night, however, I had a craving! I want ice cream! I want cake! I want things I never really ate on a daily basis, but I wanted it then. My husband's support helped me through last night...he yelled at me and told me NO! "I'll hide the carkeys!" Last night I hated him! Today I love him for it! And, today I have redirected my hate over to my trainer I will call Luke!
Luke has me eating this for the next seven days:
Meal 1:
1 egg
3 tbs of Grape Nuts
1 Cup of soy milk
Meal 2:
1 tbs O.O. Mayo
3 oz. roasted turkey meat
2.5 pieces corn tortillas
(I can add a leaf of lettuce if I want to, and I probably will)
Meal 3:
2 tbs. grated parmesan cheese
3 oz. roasted chicken breast
1 cup pasta
1/5 cup veggie
Meal 4:
3 brown plain rice cakes
2 oz. broiled lean steak
I am going to waste away to nothing! I am going to starve through the day! I called my sister and told her this. She loves fitness and works out. She's one of those girls whose a stick insect who thinks they are fat. I started going off on her about this menu. How am I going to manage these meals working graveyard shifts? Maybe I can switch the meals around to better suit my day? Maybe I can have a stick of celery for a snack in the middle of the day...Raina stopped me. "Are you listening to yourself? Do you realize that your life centers around food?" Now that I think about it, you're right! I never realized this before!
I asked my sister if she ever remembered a time when I wasn't overweight, and she said not really. Maybe when I was 15. She recalled a memory of me hiding a box of donuts in our bedroom closet, and I wouldn't share. We laughed...totally sounds like me! When I go out with friends or family it's to a restaurant. When I have company over I cook them a meal. Food is the center of my life. It has been comforting, it keeps me entertained when I am bored...I have always been there for food. But, has it ever been there for me? No! I am overweight, a chronic yawner, and can sleep all day and all night all from how I eat. It has never been my friend! What a wake-up call.
I need to redirect my thinking and refocus my day without food and go through these weekly meal plans without complaining. My sister quoted me Kate Moss: Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels. I wrote this on my refrigerator. I have had all the sugar, chocolate, soda pop, popcorn, bread, cream, cheese, milk, etc. to last me a lifetime. Now, I want to feel good and energetic...I want a lifetime!
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